SHAME: The Reward of "Choice"
I have often sat in church, wondering how many other women in the same room have had abortions. How many of these women are hiding their deep dark secret from the rest of the world - from their own husbands and their other children perhaps. Too afraid to be judged and ridiculed to speak out and deal with it and overcome it. The statistics in South Africa are not accurate as they do not account for "back street" abortions (although abortion is legal in South Africa, many women still have abortions done by "backstreet butchers" - I believe because of shame). Whatever the accurate amount of abortions are and how many abortions every one woman procure is actually besides the point - because one abortion is one too many.
Years after I had my own abortion and have come to know Jesus, I still suffered to overcome the shame and dealing with the emotional scars took many many years. You cannot undo the fact that you conceived a child. This fact will ring into eternity. Shame is a very powerful weapon that keeps people silent. It's like a festering wound hidden under layers of swelling skin (graphic I know, but necessary). The real muck is always hidden underneath outer layers of issues like anger, addictions, depression and anxiety / panic attacks, self hatred / mutilation, psychological affliction, eating disorders and many more. All the while, the post abortive person is so busy fighting through the manifestations of the real issue that they cannot deal with the pain, the guilt and the shame of their own "choice" and carry on to live defeated lives.
I believe that abortion has been one of satan's most effective tools to hold captive, harm, torment and ultimately kill the human race whom he so hates. Not even the world wars put together have killed as many people as legalized abortion has.
So what do we do as Christians who still have not dealt with that "choice" to have your own child's life ended? You will remain captive until you bring your secret into the open. Until you have confessed murder as a sin before ABBA Father and have asked for forgiveness by the Blood of Jesus, you cannot be free. After this, you need to talk about the abortion to start the healing process. Join a support group or church counselling group specifically aimed at helping post abortive women and start talking about it.
Once the light of God's truth exposes and shines on a secret, satan can no longer shackle you to it. You will be victorious and overcome the enemy in Christ Jesus.
For You will my lamp; The my God will enlighten my .
Blessings to you.